There's nothing I hate more then regrets.

In fact, I hate them so much that I couldn't even come up with a song lyric that applies. Shocking. I hate that feeling that I should've said or done something differently or not at all. I hate that I can't let it go, no matter how small and unimportant it is. I hate thinking that maybe I won't have a second chance. And I absolutely, positively hate the fact that no matter what I do, I always look back and feel as though I've made a mistake. This time around, there are so many things I wish I'd told Ben - That he made a depressing evening into a spectacular one. That it was so much fun to watch him join in on the drums. I really, REALLY wish I'd told him about the drum circles. Cause, see, I'm delusional, and I've decided that telling him that would tempt him to come back. Ridiculous, right? I got to talk to Ben Grubin, and all I can think about is what I really should've said. Stupid little things I wish I'd said. But what if I don't get a second chance? It's not just Ben. It's never just one thing...
Aaron Marsh. He was right there. I literally walked right past him and I didn't know what to say... So I didn't say anything. And now I don't get a second chance. And even when I do, sometimes I still don't take it...
Jon Foreman, for instance. I've met him TWICE now and I still haven't told him that he's one of my favorite people in the world, that Switchfoot has changed my outlook, that when I hear "Dare You To Move" I remember I'm alive, really alive.
Stephen Christian. I really did intend to tell him how much he's helped me through the problems I've had in the past, but when I met him I couldn't quite do it. I just didn't know how. I don't really know how to tell anyone about that time in my life, not the full extent of it... But if I could figure it out, he'd be the one I'd tell. The one I'd trust to understand and to care and to really grasp how much he'd helped me out.

...still trying to figure out that song lyric.

They say, "That kid, he's got soul..."

Yeah, I know that's a line from a Cobra Starship song. But it fits. This is a new song that Hockey played Friday night. This video is from their show in Brussels, but it's the same song.




There's no way to explain what I'm trying to explain without it sounding strange, but no one is going to read this anyway... So here goes. Alright. The song. The slow parts, where he would sway and bow his head... I could feel his voice, the sound vibrations... But it was more than that. I could feel his passion, and I got chills. Funny, right? Of all the shows I've gone to, of all the bands I've seen, it's Hockey setting me all a-shiver. Well, we all know I'm a little odd, and this is just further proof of that. But there's something about him, you know?

Tomorrow's just a song away...

HOCKEYYYY. Fantastic show. The bands that they've been touring with were playing at SXSW today, so the opening act was a guy that the bass player knew, a local musician by the name of Ryan Sheffield. He was cool. I couldn't help but wonder if he's going to be the next Bob Dylan. I don't know what I'm talking about though, so don't mind me. Hockey were AWESOME, I've never come so close to full-out dancing in public, haha. It was a particularly amazing achievement tonight, because I was so depressed and lonely when I first got there. It seemed like everyone was part of a group except for me. That Ryan, though... Not only was he a great performer, but it was also a LOT of fun watching him and his girlfriend dancing during Hockey's set! Haha, such an adorable couple. Definitely helped me loosen up a bit, plus totally cheered me up as well. They looked like they were having such a good time, I couldn't help but smile. It actually worked out for me, not being part of a big group, cause after the show my brother and I got to hang out with Ben. He was seriously so, so sweet- even though he was sick, he still stayed and talked with us for a little while. He's a cool guy for sure. I hope the sunshine today and the hug last night made him feel better. You never would've guessed he was feeling under the weather from his performance; he did really well. I thought it was kinda cute that he had to stand on his tiptoes to make the harmonica reach the microphone. Hehe. But anyway... They all did really great, I'm just mainly talking about him cause he was right in front of me during their set, and he was the one I spent the most time with afterwards. They're all very cool guys, very friendly and awesome. There was an interesting moment with the keyboardist in which he was just inches away when I looked him in the eye and thanked him. See, I was on the floor and he was leaning off the stage, where he'd been packing up his gear. I didn't realize he was quite that close when I looked up from my ticket... Hopefully he didn't feel I was invading his personal space. It wasn't intentional, anyway.

The evening started with feeling lonely and ended hanging out with Ben Grubin...
I think that's a fair trade-off.

Headlights + David Bazan (March 18th, 2010)

Absolutely terrific bands, and in a fantastic venue as well! I'd been to The Grey Eagle once before and liked it immediately; I appreciated it even more this time around. It's chill environment makes it a great place not only to see bands, but also to hang out before and after the show. Plus, the french fries are delicious. But anyway. Both bands were amazing; I'd first heard of Headlights because Mason posted a video of theirs on the a'tris blog; I investigated them further afterwards (including their Daytrotter Sessions) and then just kinda lucked out in the fact that they were stopping in Asheville. I wasn't at all familiar with Dave's work before the show; I had heard of Pedro The Lion before, but never really checked them out. Bit of failure on my part, but it worked out anyway. Something about the vibe made me way more outgoing than usual; I spoke up during Dave's Q&A, which is something I'd never do ordinarily. It definitely led to a bad case of the giggles later though, haha... You see, I was a tad bit mischievous with my question. Ordinarily I never would've done this, mind you; but see, I'd been.. er... admiring his drummer, Alex, all evening, so when Dave asked if anyone had any questions, I just had to ask... "Does Alex have a girlfriend?" (For the record, he does. Hahaha.)
When he walked past me later on, I looked innocently at the ceiling. I couldn't be sure that he'd recognize me as the one who inquired, but the blushing probably would've given me away. ;)
I got 75% of Headlights to sign my ticket; I missed Brett, I wasn't quite fast enough I guess. They're all really cool folks though. Now, if I could just figure out who Tristan reminds me of... Erin was so nice too, and she had awesome boots! They said they'd be coming back, I'm looking forward to it.